Hoping for a man, mature enough to have a child with me and parenting the child. Conscious childbearing is this phase of my life.
I’ve been living in Delhi the last couple of months. Back at my parents house. My home.
Last year during my visit here, I called myself “a guest in my parents house”
All of us are guests on this planet anyway.
I’ve experienced mothering myself. And I’ve also fathered myself. Mothered and fathered myself in the spiritual sense (the feminine and male aspects) and in the sense of living/working/taking care of myself. This was part of my long working career and also my long spiritual journey.
Lately I’ve mothered and fathered my parents as well. They are elder people and tend to get sick on occasion. And like I mentioned before, I’m back living in Delhi.
I realize in this line of thinking, perhaps an interpretation of having relationships (male – female relationships) is this – a lot of us are completing that need to be mothered or fathered by each other. And on occasion we ask each other, “you still want more from me?” (Sarcastically)
And on occasion I’ve also experienced just turning into children and playing!
It’s an endless infinite journey.
Mothering and Fathering. And part of it is accepting coming to a place in life when one chooses to have a child. Not from need but from conscious choice.